The other side of me- I am not all bright & sunny.

Sometimes it rains & when it rains....

it pours. 

Hi.

Heads up; feeling a bit emo & sad & everything negative.

You might wanna stop reading if you can't handle me in this state Lol. 

Dramatic much?

Honestly, 

all I wanna do is be alone & pity myself one whole day, cry, watch sad movies, cry more, listen to sad songs, cry some more, have a long hot shower, cry more, and just be sad for a day & get it all over and done with.

Stupid emotions. 

I hate how I am too kind sometimes till I end up hurting myself. 

Even worse is that even though I put other people first, 

I know that I am alone, forever.

I am not asking for any reward for being nice, but sometimes I need some sort of appreciation..

..just from them.  

yes, definitely talking about someone in particular.

I hate that I actually care..

deep down inside. 

I wish it could all go away, I wish that I am not me. 

I wish it's not as complicated!

Sigh. 

If only I could actually rant all of it out without having to keep any secrets...

I should stop here now before I can't stop myself. 

Please stay, 

I shall blog on happier things after this.

Note to self; 

Always, ALWAYS remember the awesome things and people in your life, 

they matter the most. 

Blog again soon.